It’s nights like these that keep you thinking. Listening to JT on SNL while lying in bed after a long day of memorization-anticipation for the day ahead starts to weigh you down. Nervousness creeps in through the open window, it’s true purpose being cascading a cold chill to tickle your foot- the one not under the covers and instead is dangling off the side of your ‘just large enough bed’. I realized that I am happy. I can finally say that I like what I do. I’m where I want to be. I feel like I am learning things so substantially complicated, the only purpose to learn them would be for the pure, curious nature of exploring and increasing the bank of knowledge in my mind. Was today difficult? No. Difficult will not be a word I use to describe any day where I am alive-EVER. Feeling stressed, and having doubt is a choice. I will wake up with a smile every morning and retire in the evening to bed with a smirk- not only because it is just the kind of badass I am but- because that’s the way to live- sucking the marrow out of life and giving yourself back, but worthier. Today I am worthier than I was yesterday and tomorrow the pattern will continue.